Recently and quite rapidly, my husband and I picked up the comfortable and productive lives we built in the beautiful city of Greenville and relocated. The choice to uproot did not come easily but was born of an opportunity that quite simply we could not pass up. We left behind family, friends, our beloved mountains, cherished students and a yoga business that I had spent the past four years of my life working tirelessly to create. In Greenville, I had such a strong sense of self-worth... highly defined by who I was to the community, to my family and the responsibilities that I carried.
Moving changed everything....
Upon arriving at our new home, my husband was thrust into the chaos of his incredible new job which brought us here. I was left with nothing but quiet and a household to unpack. I felt ungrounded, sad and anxious. My 60-90 hour work weeks in Greenville had not prepared me for the boredom, vulnerability and lack of purpose I was going to face. You see, each and everyone of us, get's so consumed with the busyness of life that we lose apart of ourselves in the process. To mask our suffering we cram more things into less time, develop compensatory habits to provide external sources of comfort or distract us. We come to define ourselves by what we do instead of who we truly are.
After the boxes were unpacked and household was put back into order, I was left in solitude to answer some incredibly important questions.... Who Am I? What is my purpose? What do I want to do with my life? How do I want to serve this community? In the moments, where big change happens we are given the opportunity to do the scariest thing ever.... face the truth about ourselves.
I think the reason people go through major life changes is that the time has come for growth in momentous proportions. After a few months of settling in and doing the uncomfortable but rewarding work of soul searching, meditating and pursuing spiritual growth I can see the bigger picture of why this move happened in our lives. We moved so that we would be uncomfortable enough to face our fears, limiting belief patterns and let go of distracting personal habits which kept us from seeing the truth.
After having had this experience, my life will never be the same. I am stronger, more grounded, loving and self-aware than ever before. I do not claim to be enlightened and have more than my share of growth left. Yet, moving has taught me not be afraid to face the truth, to sit quietly and embrace the boredom. It is quite liberating friends!
Keri Marino is an internationally Registered Yoga Teacher and Yoga Therapist. She's owns and operates Yoga Unique offering therapy, classes, workshops and yoga products. Upcoming Workshop Yoga for Anxiety and Depression in Cary, NC at Republic of Yoga on November 15th.
I'm a Yoga Therapist, Teacher & Mama Bear who is all in on mindful authentic living. This blog is a collection of my passion for all things yoga, nutrition, health and cooking. Subscribe to the blog for monthly goodies delivered right to your email!